also I think it’s great and wonderful that everyone all of a sudden magically loves their mother and says she is the “best mom in the world” on mother’s day and only mother’s day and then they complain about her 99% of the time that isn’t mother’s day which is 364 days of the year
I don’t miss you. I don’t know what this is but I know that I HATE IT wow you’re so frustrating I don’t know what to make of this because this has never happened to me before. I don’t know what to do or what to say to you and I feel like I’m being too nice. but why does this always happen to me? WHY. why do people always cancel their plans with me, or in your case, just don’t contact me at all? Like what the fuck did I do. it’s so upsetting especially since isn’t the first time you’ve done this to me. I don’t know if you just didn’t want to see me and if you didn’t why couldn’t you have just told me that? It would have been one thousand times better than waiting around all day for you (which is exactly what I did) and then not hear a single thing from you after waiting all day. I don’t know if I should have said something because I guess I am just a fucking moron; that’s how I felt this whole weekend. and then not hearing anything from you dklfahewioageiwofjdlhfaeoiwg it makes me sick I just don’t understand why you’re doing this stop sending me these stupid mixed signals if you don’t really want anything I’m going to be sick just leave me alone if that’s what you’re doing because it will push me over the slim edge that I’m balancing on right now. I literally can’t handle this, I don’t have a grip on my life or anything in general right now and I cannot deal with you doing this to me over and over again. so please just make up your mind please I’m working with nothing right now
i am trying too hard to please everyone around me and it’s not working but i keep trying and it still doesn’t work. i have to put things i want first. that’s laughable. ha. i’m 19 years old and i want to die every single day of my life. i have no will to live any longer. i have driven everyone out of my life. gold star for you katie. you did exactly what you told yourself you wanted. and now you are at the end of the road and realizing that there really isn’t a hidden path like you thought there would be. i’m 19 years old and every day i wish i was dead. i shouldn’t think that. i shouldn’t want that. and i know that. i’m too young for that. i have done nothing with my life but i shouldn’t want to die and i do. i’m 19 years old but i feel like i’m 40something. i shouldn’t feel this way. i shouldn’t. i shouldn’t. what the FUCK am i supposed to do.
